Catharsis

Freelancing can be exciting, addictive and by times counter-productive. Like a circus act spinning plates in the air on the end of long sticks, freelancers live in a constant state of dynamic tension.  So long as the plates are kept spinning they stay aloft, but if neglected they tend to wobble and eventually crash to the floor.

This winter I laid my soul bare on the light table. For several cold, gray months, I risked dropping a few plates so that I could take a long hard critical look at my past 10 years of photography hoping to better understand the path I’m on and to count the cost of a call to media as a mission.

The results were humbling.

Grad class for the self-taught.

Tossing 90% of 20,000 slides was gut wrenching and to be perfectly honest to whoever told me to pursue photography back at the outset – you were either prophetic or exceedingly gracious.  But to those who did speak forth… thank you!

Winter is gone.  Buds are popping, birds are beginning to strut their stuff and I can now honestly say that I have finally arrived at a good place from which to begin.

~ by CP on May 19, 2009.